Alcoholic not so Anonymous
I have decided to not drink for a week. Not only does my liver need a rest but my bank account could use one too. However that’s not the reason I’m doing it. I have realized I’ve been drinking way too much since I arrived here in Seattle. Observing myself from the outside I have come to the conclusion that I am doing it to escape. Much like how I used drugs in the past. Drinking get my mind off of not having many friends here, not having my own place yet, being separated from my dog and feeling like I’m spinning my wheels. I’m also tired of staying up till 3 and sleeping in till 12 almost everyday. That was fine when I was 19 but I’m turning 30 next month and I feel I need to slow it down a bit. I think I’m also using drinking as an indirect excuse for stagnating. I was going to do this but I’m hung over, or I was going to go there but I slept in too late. In addition I start photography and Spanish classes next week and I don’t want alcohol to interfere with those pursuits. Finally I will probably drop a little weight as well which will be a nice side benefit. Ok I might have a glass of wine or two but no beer, liquor or trips to the bar. I’ll drink to that, well maybe I will next week.
June 5th, 2007 at 8:20 pm
Dear Vernon,
I just plugged into google: Alcohol anonymous NOT, and found your site. I too feel the same drag. Uncanny I know. I live in Portland and will be 49 soon. Just went through blood bath divorce and am bored to tears. So I find solace in the bottle. The wine bottle. But lately I have developed a very good taste for beer. I grew tired of wine snobs, and started trying beer. The last thing I needed was to find another beverage i liked.
But, I have decided to eradicate all alcohol from my home and only drink when I go out. Amazing how cheap it is to eat out! Until the liquor bill.
Any who, my take is this, Alcohol fills the boredom temporarily. Then, it fills the constructive time cause you have to nurse a hangover.
For me, to just go off of the stuff is best. Replace the booze with some exotic teas and be even cooler. Let my friends stay in slow motion for a change while I fall off the growth chart.
booze bores me and so does tv. being in motion stimulates me, and being mentally alert excites me the most. I love being clear headed and physically fit.
Why I sometimes abuse the alcolhol is perplexing. However, I do not see myself as a tea totler all the time. Just most of the time.
Sober and aware for now,
but, alcohol anonymous, NOT.
Susan D.
mommydoll@msn.com